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Small Gallery written @ 8:44 PM on October 15, 2003 I had a dream the other night that I was arguing with my dad. About what? you may ask. Take a wild guess as to what. What else have I argued intensely with him about the past year and a half? The same old shit. And now it's showing up in my dreams. In this dream, however, I had actually decided to sever the tie between us and go on with my life without him. It made me sad this morning because dreams are supposed to be the yearnings of the subconscious, and I don't know that I want to sever the ties with my father. It seemed too intense, too easy a path. But whatever. Talking about that sort of thing is not what I had wanted for this entry. I only hope that dream wasn't some prophetic vision. I'd like to think I'm not mentally or emotionally capable to sever ties with someone. Anyway, moving on... *** I actually broke down and told my mother that I was thinking about changing my major from graphic design to painting. To quote a professional friend of mine in my drawing class, "We lose too many good artists to graphic design." And my mother surprised me when she said, "Well, it's good that you're trying to figure out what you're best in and what's good for you." She is, of course, concerned about my future and career financially. But I assured her that somehow things will work out for me in the end. Besides that, I haven't finalized my decision. I told her that I wanted to see how I grew as an artist this year. Maybe I'll even take some courses to see if graphic design is right for me before changing. "I thought you'd pitch a fit," I said to her on the phone. "Why should I?" she inquired. "I'm not the one going to school." True. "I guess I just wanted your and Dad's blessing on it. I haven't finalized anything, but graphic design doesn't seem right to me anymore. Sure, it would be practical for my other major, but I won't be happy in it for long." I think she understood. Anyway, I finally got around to taking some digital pics of the figure drawings I've been working on: This was the first drawing I did this semester after a year of not doing figure work. It's all right, I guess. Not perfect. But already you can see that I unwittingly planted the seeds of the dramatic turn my style takes in these next pieces... Boom. I know the quality on these pics are not so good, but this is just to give you an idea. I began working on this piece as I always used to, and then my marks and shading began to describe the temperature of the lighting on the figure more so than the plains. My abstract coloring begins to become evident in the background and how it interacts with the figure. I switched my medium to oil pastel as opposed to chalk, just to see what the difference in application was with my new-found abstract colorist style. I broke my own rule to never apply true black and found it could be useful to help pop body parts and describe form. Notice the impact the colored paper has on the temperature of the colors. This is actually a personal favorite of mine. I think I'll be entering this one in the juried art competition later this year. I think it's evident how my work evolved through just a few finished drawings, a small stepping stone to the watershed piece that became my swan painting (which I did not get a chance to photograph). This is actually a good one to see in real life. The mark-making is lost in this one, but to get an idea of it, look carefully at the green cloth. An unfinished piece. This is what I've been working on anyway. They're nothing spectacular or revolutionary in their content, but these are the first pieces that I could say are rather important to me. As always, any feedback or critisism is appreciated.
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