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Rejection Letters written @ 7:05 PM on April 08, 2002 My parents informed me that it would soon be time to send scholarship rejection letters to my colleges-- hopefully as an effort to earn more money. It won't happen. And even if it did, it would only makes things so much harder. My dad drafted a rejection letter example and gave it to me to read. It was addressed to RISD. And it was only at that point I realized that once I printed the final version out, it would come time to sign my name to that paper. It would be like signing away my dreams. "Signing away my dreams," I thought to myself. I put the letter down and tried so hard not to cry, but it was no use. Not too long ago, Dad sat me down and had a serious conversation with me about my college decision. He said he honestly did not care where I should go, but my choice should not be based on the financial stability or instability of this family. I think he honestly wants me to go to RISD. He asked me what I see for myself deep in my heart. RISD: I sense that I will have a good job with decent money after graduation, but I doubt I will be happy doing graphic design my entire life. CCAD: I will have a decent job with okay money, and I sense I will be happy and will start off on a strong path toward my career goals. Miami U: Same as above. UD: A little bit less than above. UC: I feel cold when I think of UC. It's a sensation I cannot explain. I feel like I'll be sucked up into this whirlwind of shallow, cut-throat competition with other students, and I don't want to compete so coldly. I sense a job upon graduation, but I don't think I will get as far ahead as I could. NKU: All I feel is emptiness and uncertainty. And I suppose this is the final reason why I choose this school over the others: the uncertain future. It's a dangerous, jagged, shady path that could lead to inner destruction, but passed the emptiness, I sense a glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. And I think there is more of a chance that I'll meet my goals here than at any other school. I can't say what makes me think this. I do not have strong intuition but it's enough to know where the danger lies. Something about NKU seems right, even if the future is hazy. It's funny. I used to know exactly what I was going to do down to the slightest detail, and now I discover a fork in the path of my life I didn't see coming from a mile away. So signing away my dreams... I suppose I can either look at it as signing them away or taking a detour route. All I know is that I still have to sign that letter.
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